Firstly. We'll start with the holiday romance.
I've fallen big style for him.
And I'm hoping when i go visit again this time.
I'll find out exactly what he thinks of me... I'm hoping it'll be good.
Cos i'm not sure how i'll cope if he just ignores me.
He texts me now and again but it's kinda gradually filtered out to nothing, and i haven't had a reply from him in a while now.
The key question is... Should i ring him?
Yes, all that money on one phone call.. And if i do ring him, what the hell do i say?!?!?
Its too damned confusing, i really hate boys, i hate being paranoid and i hate being alone.
Its gay!!